29 July 2009

I am noticing a change. Even exhausted to the point of falling asleep at my computer desk I'm able to focus and react calmly and appropriately to one of my son's tantrums. Before this change I was prone to overreacting and losing my cool, if that's what you could call my disposition when my blood pressure was always at frightening levels. I'm so much calmer now.

Admittedly there are multiple factors at work here, but I'm beginning to believe that there is no more powerful source of strength and renewal than honesty with one's self.

I have to strip away the facade, the persona I portray, the false identity I've created as a defense against reality, responsibility, and meaningful relationships, and learn to embrace my anima, my true self. I must relinquish my hold on those childhood dreams and discover my true gifts, for in them I manifest the nature of my Father.