Day 62

I did it! I reached goal #1! I did the 2.5 mile walk in 34:54, over one minute less than the Army standard for my age group. It's hard to conceive the pace that young people with injuries have to maintain just to pass a WALK test!

Injured Soldiers forced to walk at those insane paces... because they're INJURED??? It's a total setup for failure. Once your body has outlived its usefulness the Army no longer wants you.

No military force in the world values mental acuity when a volunteer's physicality is limited. Or could I just be generalizing based on my own experiences?

Nah. I forgot. Disabled, overweight, and physically unfit people are utterly useless.

Sarcasm aside I actually do feel useless as an overweight person. I'm not of the "you gotta love me for who I am" school of thought. I'm more of a "don't hate me because I'm beautiful, hate me because I'm fat" kinda guy.

If I can't stand what I see in the mirror I don't exactly expect anyone else to feel any differently about me. In fact, I generally assume that people share my disgust.

I know that even as I shed the pounds I will still hold on to that hideous self image. It didn't leave me the first time. I know it won't change this time either. This time, however, I will use that disgust as a motivator, a tool, of sorts, to keep myself from ever going down that path again.

I'm happy with my progress, but I'm not halfway to my target. I have a long way to go. Fortunately I have been able to keep myself going these past two months with only one day of reprieve. I'm not about to let up my pace any time soon.

Day 62: 5.5+ miles in 90 minutes.